Sunday, 23 June 2013


I've recently been coming more and more frustrated with the fact that i cannot find any shoes that i like aswel as feel comfortable enough to wear. I don't like to wear leather as i am vegan so that cuts out a huge range of shoes, i also want black ones, and i also like them without heels. So this already makes it very difficult. This often ends in me buying the same shoes again, i've done this many a time including primary school with a pair of runners i got in great one. I remember my mum baught me a new pair before these ones, that i thought i liked, but i wasn't completely sure about. I figured i'd just get used to them anyway. But the next school weel i had a doctors appointment so i was late for school and it was sport that day so i wore the shoes for the first time. As soon as i arrived and walked towards the class room in these shoes i began to feel very self conciouse and anxiouse, i felt like a giant and my shoes like platform boots. I then proceeded to cry and i made my mum take me home and get changed.

This makes me think i'm a little mad and i never thought i was this fussy . But over the last few weeks i've desperately wanted some new lace up boots. I was jsut going to buy the same ones again but they are no longer made. So i figured this was a great chance for a change, and maybe this would be good for me. But i have ended up spending lots of money on shoes that i buy that i think i like but i never wear, or i do wear but chance throughout the day.
I decided i should try another depserate atempt today as on my way to work today the entire sole of my shoe came out. This was it i was going to make a real effort. But i ended up coming home early and atmepting to sew up the heel of my shoes and planning to buy new lace's instead.

Oh i also forgot to mention my many atempts to cut off heels from shoes both succesfull and disastrusly. Mostly disastrously though.

Sunday, 9 June 2013

More drawings and feeling sick

Hey there, all week i've been really sick and was bed ridden for three days. My wonderful housemate took care of me and braught me food and tea even when i was half asleep and couldnt manage to say much, but mumble and go back to sleep. Whenever i get sick i tend to get a bit down as i am bored and want to do stuff but i just feel way too rotten to. I ended up watching an awful lot of Degrassie and becoming very aware again of teenage anxst. I ended up having all these crazy fever dreams about being back in high school and being miserable and scared all the time. This stent of being sick has made me apreciate feeling better the majority of the time! and actually being able to stomache coffee and leaving the house without feeling faint and seeing double whilst i walk.

I also finally put up some more drawings that i did awhile ago! i hope you like.