A kind of new beginning in a way

I've managed to get a new job at an art supplies store, i've managed to become homeless in the next 2 weeks, i've managed to throw out alot of stuff, i've also managed to get through the first month of the new year without  crawling into a heap.
Moving is much harder than i thought it would be. Finding the perfect house in the perfect location has never been so very important. I want to be happy, content and feel better, but i want a house, i want a garden! it's all about what i want, but not about feeling just happy to be alive and have potential to live in a new home. My stuff is all in boxes and piling up in my old room. This room doesn't feel like mine anymore, this makes it very hard to sleep in it. I thought about putting everything into storage and running away for a bit. This may not help my new found change in life but destroy its secure structure. So i must be me, alice old me, and stay sane whilst i move on with things.

Thoughts of winter

It's been awhile im sure. But winter should be here, im sitting next to my window with the steaming hot sun blaring at me and reminding me it's still here, and shall be for alot longer. Summer definately has its benefits, but in all it is fake and rediculus! it's full of crazies with no shirts on and loud people who don't know when to shut up. I need winter back so i can sleep better at night.


Making a quilt in hope for this.

hermit/socialite

It's odd how i often want to be by myself when hanging out with people, but when i do get to be by myself i want to be around people again. I can never seem to get that feeling of being content anymore. I reached it once, and itwas wonderful and the pure bliss that i felt was like nothing else. It was when i first moved to Sydney! i knew what i was doing was the right thing and it felt so good and that i was in the right place at the right time. Now i'm so unsure, i've started to regret some of my choices and decisions ive made over time. Maybe i should of done more or taken advantage of things or even been a bit meaner and not thrown around. I don't mean to be such a downer, but i can't stop thinking at the moment, and having so much time on my hand creates too much thought, and it often leads to excessive over thinking.

i best start quilting now

Back on my feet i am, and looking forward. I spent the day with jane, we had nibbles in hyde park and looked at pyjamas. I wanted to watch lord of the rings aswel, as many cannot beleive that i haven't yet. So far i've seen the first, but i cannot wait to see the others! i beleive a hobbit has the perfect lifestyle, and i hope to go to New Zealand one day and find it.

An Overwhleming Christmas in Tasmania

The past few weeks have been filled with friends, family, nastalga, fear, saddness, hope, regret, confusion, memories, new people, new relationships, old relationships, comfort, love, anger and food.
It's been wonderful and great  but things need to settle down now. I'm back in Sydney now and looking for change and a new direction to take me and lead me to a place where i will be more content and comfrotable. I've been surrounding myself with lovely people and hiding from the horrid ones, i wish i could be more brave and be able to put up with the nasty ones, but i honestly have no time for them, and i'd rather just meet more people that will hang out with me in a park and read n talk about such things that are on our minds.

                                                                 Ginger Bread house

A real Christmas tree

Vegan Blueberry cheesecake

Soy ice cream with home grown rasberries

The rasberry farm

Vegan Christmas dinner

The Gorge

Tasmanian coles

Local Farmers market