stresss, love and anxiety

So i don't think ive stopped to smell any floweres this week! it seems to be busy and flat out or nothing and down in the dumps. Working is good yet awful, but it's a job and i need the money. I wish things were simpler and that winter was real in Sydney, also that a nice loaf of bread was less than $5. I have too much to do, i don't know where to start, and no doubt how ever hard i try in class i'll do badly and hav to start again. Sorry bout this post.

itis isnt it

we just had a huge storm here in sydney, itwas enormus and scary! im home alone again thought, with my housemates out being all very into easter. This week is going to be a different one with new beginnings again. Im unsure how much change i can really bare. Work is an exhasuting change and this housemate transition, a lonely one. Might have to bake a cake tomorrow and invite someone over for tea. I then have to work thought, and work makes me awfully tired. I'd like a velvet jacket and a new coat of somekind, i want to buy things and hide and watch the rain outside. Ive been drinking alot of tea, trying to feel better about things. Maybe, perhaps i will go shopping on ebay again.

Crafty days

hi there, i got up today not feeling too well! but i forced myself to get up and im glad i did, things feel much better now and the coffee helped alot!
I began with porridge and then went to the large cup of coffee, then cleaned up a little, i do like having a clean kitchen, so that instantly made me feel better! then i bummed around on the internet as usual and started creating little houses out of cardbourd and fabric and listening to belle and sebastion (:
this was a great idea! i feel much better! i also cleaned more and made my dinner for tonite! it really has bin such a productive day and i haven't even left for work yet! i think it says alot for getting a good nights rest with less stress on the mind (:

getting better

ive been very busy lately, i started a new job you see, a job at coles! i spent the majority of the time being terrified for the first week! but im likely its stability and having somewhere else to go where i am needed and rewarded. I always thought id hate having to work, but it's good, rather exhausting but good. And i like wearing a uniform now and then, i feel like one of the many and i can hide a little. It's a bit like having two different lives really. But i like it, it creates change and difference!
Uni is overwhelming thought, i have an awful lot to do! i drank a bottle of wine fridy nite at a friends to relax and forget about things for awhile and have fun! i woke the next morning with such a sense of wellbeing and no exhasting feeling atal. I put on my work shirt and got on my way! i came home to my dearest flat mate and her cheery smile!

HI there

hi there, things are alrite, their kind of perfect, which is oddly hard to handle. Today i went to uni and well im glad to be back in the creative mind set properly. I've bin excited about the beginnings of autumn thought, i think it might be the best Autumn yet! i want crisp air and cardiens, hot tea and hot cross buns! i've been talking to my dad alot of late, my current art projects about the letters he sent me when i first moved to sydney. I like the idea, but looking over the letters again, so much had changed in such a small amount of time, it's quite scary really. Im glad for the change though and the future ahead! i just need to feel more content and less scared by the promise of change.

hello there

hello here everyone! things are back on track with the world of university. I am on track with assesments and the creative thought process that follows it. I'm trying to get more structure in m life, and i even have a job interview at coles tomorrow! which i am actually quite terrified about, i need this job, i need the money, the structure and the general idea that i am needed in an area at somepoint at some time.
Listening to alot of music too though, and hanging out with friends who are quite lovely and good, im lucky to have them. I'm defiantely growing up, i can feel it, the bob is growing out and i'm beginning to feel and itch to stop drinking so much.

Autumn thoughts

Hey there, ive been thinking alot lately about the wether and this time of year. i always look forward to it, the begining of my favorite season, the begining of a new school year and the begining of that hopefully feeling that it will be a better year and things will change. I always get the same nastalgic feeling of being at home in my winter blue school uniform, being half asleep, eating toast wondering if i can get out of school tomorrow, or i could just pretend to be sick again.
Now im in a bit of a better spot, living in sydney studying art, but it's good,but i want the wether, the wether with real fresh air, and i honestly thought id be a bit smarter by now and that i could spell and perhaos even write a sentence that makes a bit of sense.
i like you thought, you that listens and msot liekly judges but hides it so i dont get upset thank you!